Every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end ...

So as 2010 draws to a close, I feel like I should be posting a deep and meaningful blog about the year. A uleogy of sorts perhaps. I'll give it my best shot but chances are, it will be nothing special.

This year has been one of the most stressful, hectic, enjoyable years of my life so far. It's been jam packed with decisions and forks in the road that the rest of my life depends on. In the last twelve months I have:

• decided on a career path
• decided on a study path
• made plans to move out
• started looking properly for a job
• made a lot of personal changes.

For me, this year has been huge. Some parts have made me want to run away and hide until it had all blown over, but some parts have made me wish I could replay them forever. 2010 has been a real mixed bag for me, but it has been wonderful.  I've made some of the best friends I've ever had in my life and I've also lost some friends.  But you have to take the good with the bad, right?

I'm sure that the people important to me know just how wonderful I think they are, even if I don't say it all too often. But I love every single person in my life. I couldn't be more thankful for good friends. I see my friends as the family I choose for myself and I couldn't ask for a better bunch of people. I love you guys.

This was the year of my 18th birthday. A big step for the baby of the family, who never really wanted to grow up. I may be an adult now, but by no means am I grown up. I'm still as immature as I was at 15 and sometimes, I couldn't be happier with that fact. The next few years of my life will be even more trying than the last I'll bet and so, I'll probably blog a lot more- ranting and raving about my life.

I can't wait for new years. I'm spending it with a bunch of the best people I know- it should be freakin' awesome.  I hope everyone has a wonderful (and safe!!) new year celebration and I'll see you all in 2011!

And this can't be saved if you can't be found ...

I've been thinking about how many friends have come and gone out of my life over the past 18 years. It makes me incredibly sad that I've lost touch with so many. Each and every one has shaped me or influenced my life in some way or another, be it good or bad,  and for that I will be eternally grateful. Although some experiences I have had haven't always been nice, I've learned a lot from my misfortunes.

I have learned one thing in the last few weeks- although the experience may not be positive, or pleasurable, you can always learn from it. Experience is the key to life.

I'm also a little concerned ..

at how much of my time I spend playing The Sims 2.  It's all too entertaining to play God.

I've just found my new addiction for the next year or so. Wonderful.

I'm really not cut out for blogging ...

It seems that whenever I try to keep a blog up to date, I never have anything of substance to write about. But as soon as I delete my blog, or list myself as on a hiatus- my mind is flooded.  Typical.

I've been hit with an overwhelming sense of calm the last couple of days. My usually hyperactive mind has been quieted as of late, which is unusual in itself.  I find myself quite content to sit outside in the sun with my ipod, letting my mind run where it will.

I'm losing track of the days, which is the mark of a hazy summer well spent. Music, sun and friends. Perfect.

If you are seeking an absolute truth, you will not find it.

Only a truth that applies to you.

I love phrases ambiguous in relation to context. I love phrases that are philosophically provoking. I love to ponder, to wonder and to think. Lately I have been lost in thought about anything and everything. I am entirely too lost in the clouds.

Well, hello there ...

So, this is my first post. But this is not my first blog. I never really believed that my life was something to write about, which never motivated me to blog much at all. But lately, I've decided that as I head (that sounds too purposeful for me- meander is probably more accurate) towards adulthood, my thoughts count for something- even if it's only just on a personal level.


I plan to ramble, rant and rave here about anything and everything going on in my head. So welcome to insanity.