And this addiction is killing me ...

So this ... no carbonated stuff thing ... it's killing me. It's only the 3rd and I feel like a heroin addict on withdrawl. The really irritating thing is,  my mother bought a 2.5L bottle of coke and it's in the fridge.  Nobody else drinks it, so it's a temptation that will never go away, since I'm not allowed to throw it away.

So, temptation. It's there. It's killing me. I might cave. Effff.

Oh yeah! And ...

I had the best new years ever. That is all.

And it really makes me wonder ...

So, it seems like every year I make a new years resolution that I never keep. Most of the time, they weren't really of any benefit to me, just things that I could think of at the time. This year however, I have thought of something that is both benificial to me and a challenge. In fact, a huge challenge.

I've decided to give up all carbonated drinks this year ... for the entire year. Yup, you heard right. The pepsi addict is giving up carbonated drinks. This will kill me.

But I've found that after I started drinking fizzy stuff again (especially coke) I feel sick all of the time.  So, my reasoning:  if I give up fizzy drinks, I can avoid the constant sickly feeling I have. And I suspect it will do my energy levels wonders too. So .. yay!!

On the other hand, anyone who knows me, knows how addicted I am to pepsi and coke. I drink a couple of glasses of it a day, at least. This is going to be really difficult. BUT, I've done it before and I can do it again.

Motivation, I has it.

Every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end ...

So as 2010 draws to a close, I feel like I should be posting a deep and meaningful blog about the year. A uleogy of sorts perhaps. I'll give it my best shot but chances are, it will be nothing special.

This year has been one of the most stressful, hectic, enjoyable years of my life so far. It's been jam packed with decisions and forks in the road that the rest of my life depends on. In the last twelve months I have:

• decided on a career path
• decided on a study path
• made plans to move out
• started looking properly for a job
• made a lot of personal changes.

For me, this year has been huge. Some parts have made me want to run away and hide until it had all blown over, but some parts have made me wish I could replay them forever. 2010 has been a real mixed bag for me, but it has been wonderful.  I've made some of the best friends I've ever had in my life and I've also lost some friends.  But you have to take the good with the bad, right?

I'm sure that the people important to me know just how wonderful I think they are, even if I don't say it all too often. But I love every single person in my life. I couldn't be more thankful for good friends. I see my friends as the family I choose for myself and I couldn't ask for a better bunch of people. I love you guys.

This was the year of my 18th birthday. A big step for the baby of the family, who never really wanted to grow up. I may be an adult now, but by no means am I grown up. I'm still as immature as I was at 15 and sometimes, I couldn't be happier with that fact. The next few years of my life will be even more trying than the last I'll bet and so, I'll probably blog a lot more- ranting and raving about my life.

I can't wait for new years. I'm spending it with a bunch of the best people I know- it should be freakin' awesome.  I hope everyone has a wonderful (and safe!!) new year celebration and I'll see you all in 2011!

And this can't be saved if you can't be found ...

I've been thinking about how many friends have come and gone out of my life over the past 18 years. It makes me incredibly sad that I've lost touch with so many. Each and every one has shaped me or influenced my life in some way or another, be it good or bad,  and for that I will be eternally grateful. Although some experiences I have had haven't always been nice, I've learned a lot from my misfortunes.

I have learned one thing in the last few weeks- although the experience may not be positive, or pleasurable, you can always learn from it. Experience is the key to life.

I'm also a little concerned ..

at how much of my time I spend playing The Sims 2.  It's all too entertaining to play God.

I've just found my new addiction for the next year or so. Wonderful.

I'm really not cut out for blogging ...

It seems that whenever I try to keep a blog up to date, I never have anything of substance to write about. But as soon as I delete my blog, or list myself as on a hiatus- my mind is flooded.  Typical.

I've been hit with an overwhelming sense of calm the last couple of days. My usually hyperactive mind has been quieted as of late, which is unusual in itself.  I find myself quite content to sit outside in the sun with my ipod, letting my mind run where it will.

I'm losing track of the days, which is the mark of a hazy summer well spent. Music, sun and friends. Perfect.